In all of my blogs, I like to keep a good variety of subjects and I would say that I hold that to be mostly true. But just as in life, sometimes there are periods of time, where variation takes a backseat to addressing more important or pressing issues. My intention here is not focused on any one thing in particular, but when matters arise, they should be discussed.
Before I get started, I want to include a link to a song that is very personal to me. It has been the “theme song” to all of my endeavors, challenges, and my overall position in life. I would like you to listen to it after you read this blog. I hope in some way it resonates with you, and if it does not, just know that the lyrics speak volumes about yours truly. If you do listen to it before reading the blog, maybe listen to it afterwards as well and see if anything changes for you…
https://youtu.be/KxnpFKZowcs?si=q9tsNafIpyCu9JVa
On a personal level, lately I have been going through a lot of changes, reflection, introspection, and on a rare occasion, emotional meltdowns. While some may encounter similar situations calling it a weakness, I call it being human. And if you do not have those days, you are either lying to yourself, or you are not of this species- and I mean this from the depth of my soul.
There are people, such as myself, who have spent their whole lives being the “rock” for other people. You are the strength that no one else has, the one who rises against injustices, the person no one ever sees cry, the shoulder to cry on, the one who “always has it together”, and a million other “knight and shining armor” images cast upon you. This is not a lie, or a facade. It is both a blessing and a curse. But more importantly, it is a HUGE responsibility. This responsibility is accepted not by choice, but by destiny (for lack of a better term). Those who it is bestowed upon are subject to a life of conflict between both good will and loneliness.
The truth is that people need people- emotionally, physically, psychologically and intellectually. Our well-being is directly dependent upon the relationships we have with other people. When we don't have those relationships, we are feral at best. But even when we do have people in our lives, situations arise where something more is needed. When we reach breaking points, or have a decision we need to make or have made, or there's a shift in our norms such as a break up, a death, a job loss, or just the realization that our lives are not what we imagined. All human instances, all potentially painful, all requiring the understanding, and hopefully the compassion of another soul. We cannot avoid any of these no matter how hard we try. Control is a literal illusion and if these events are meant to occur, they will, AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT.
But….
There are people. People who allow you to temporarily succumb to your sadness, express your anger or your disdain, to live in your moment of whatever emotion you need to express… to be your “rock”- to lean on, to cry to, to shout at, to be silent, to give you strength or solitude, to be whatever it is that you need to be at that time, and to allow you to live in the moment of your emotions so you can deal with them and move forward.
I am one of those people. I have been so my entire life. It is a massive responsibility and one of the loneliest gifts you could ever imagine. The ability to bring comfort to others is an amazing thing and I would not trade it for anything. But all good things come with a price. Every good deed I do, or kindness I show, is done so with the most purest of intention and with absolutely no expectation of return. But that is my own personal way. And while I do not ask for or seek anything in return, I continue to do so with full knowledge that for people like me, there is no reciprocity. I am the most optimistic, silver lining, always finding the good in all, positive being… but for me, there is not going to be someone who can be for me what I can be for others… at least not unconditionally, or permanently, or genuinely, and some days that can be a really hard pill to swallow.
This acknowledgement will never prevent me from being that someone for someone. I will never shy away or back down from providing comfort to anyone. I will never expect anything in return, or turn anyone away, nor will I ever judge anyone who needs “a person”, because not everyone has been gifted with the strength I have been given, and for that I am truly grateful.
-but PS. Some days, it sucks to be that strong. Lol.- just keeping it real.
To all my rocks out there… In case no one has ever told you… Thank you. You are sooooo necessary, so amazing, so lovely, and selfless. There are more of you that exist out there, believe it or not. Stay strong, stay beautiful and stay grateful!! It's worth it, and so are you.
Take care of yourself!
See you soon.
Before I get started, I want to include a link to a song that is very personal to me. It has been the “theme song” to all of my endeavors, challenges, and my overall position in life. I would like you to listen to it after you read this blog. I hope in some way it resonates with you, and if it does not, just know that the lyrics speak volumes about yours truly. If you do listen to it before reading the blog, maybe listen to it afterwards as well and see if anything changes for you…
https://youtu.be/KxnpFKZowcs?si=q9tsNafIpyCu9JVa
On a personal level, lately I have been going through a lot of changes, reflection, introspection, and on a rare occasion, emotional meltdowns. While some may encounter similar situations calling it a weakness, I call it being human. And if you do not have those days, you are either lying to yourself, or you are not of this species- and I mean this from the depth of my soul.
There are people, such as myself, who have spent their whole lives being the “rock” for other people. You are the strength that no one else has, the one who rises against injustices, the person no one ever sees cry, the shoulder to cry on, the one who “always has it together”, and a million other “knight and shining armor” images cast upon you. This is not a lie, or a facade. It is both a blessing and a curse. But more importantly, it is a HUGE responsibility. This responsibility is accepted not by choice, but by destiny (for lack of a better term). Those who it is bestowed upon are subject to a life of conflict between both good will and loneliness.
The truth is that people need people- emotionally, physically, psychologically and intellectually. Our well-being is directly dependent upon the relationships we have with other people. When we don't have those relationships, we are feral at best. But even when we do have people in our lives, situations arise where something more is needed. When we reach breaking points, or have a decision we need to make or have made, or there's a shift in our norms such as a break up, a death, a job loss, or just the realization that our lives are not what we imagined. All human instances, all potentially painful, all requiring the understanding, and hopefully the compassion of another soul. We cannot avoid any of these no matter how hard we try. Control is a literal illusion and if these events are meant to occur, they will, AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT.
But….
There are people. People who allow you to temporarily succumb to your sadness, express your anger or your disdain, to live in your moment of whatever emotion you need to express… to be your “rock”- to lean on, to cry to, to shout at, to be silent, to give you strength or solitude, to be whatever it is that you need to be at that time, and to allow you to live in the moment of your emotions so you can deal with them and move forward.
I am one of those people. I have been so my entire life. It is a massive responsibility and one of the loneliest gifts you could ever imagine. The ability to bring comfort to others is an amazing thing and I would not trade it for anything. But all good things come with a price. Every good deed I do, or kindness I show, is done so with the most purest of intention and with absolutely no expectation of return. But that is my own personal way. And while I do not ask for or seek anything in return, I continue to do so with full knowledge that for people like me, there is no reciprocity. I am the most optimistic, silver lining, always finding the good in all, positive being… but for me, there is not going to be someone who can be for me what I can be for others… at least not unconditionally, or permanently, or genuinely, and some days that can be a really hard pill to swallow.
This acknowledgement will never prevent me from being that someone for someone. I will never shy away or back down from providing comfort to anyone. I will never expect anything in return, or turn anyone away, nor will I ever judge anyone who needs “a person”, because not everyone has been gifted with the strength I have been given, and for that I am truly grateful.
-but PS. Some days, it sucks to be that strong. Lol.- just keeping it real.
To all my rocks out there… In case no one has ever told you… Thank you. You are sooooo necessary, so amazing, so lovely, and selfless. There are more of you that exist out there, believe it or not. Stay strong, stay beautiful and stay grateful!! It's worth it, and so are you.
Take care of yourself!
See you soon.
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